Hey.
There's no point to this journal, except my ranting.

I feel pretty worthless and like people don't appreciate me. It's really weird, because I'm usually a pretty chill, happy person. But lately I've been either angry, bummed, or pretended to be excited. And that's no way to be. I'm actually kind of hurt at the moment. People aren't respecting my feelings or thoughts. And that's not something that I want to admit. But I have to. I mean, the people that I spend the most time around aren't treating me like I should be. I try really hard to be the best I can be, and I guess I fall short of their expectations, because nothing is ever good enough. It's like I'm trying and it's all going right down the tube.
I expect that I may stumble a few times in the near future. IB officially begins in four months. I've signed the papers, and I'm enrolled in the classes. And I'm nervous.
I've become someone who procrastinates with EVERYTHING. And it probably affects my work. I need to change. I need a restart button. Or at least a refresh one. .
I'm tired of being treated like shit, I really am. And if I'm going to change at all, I'll have to start sticking up for myself more. I'm trying, really hard. I am. I've been making little stands, little battles with myself. I've been making people stop, and I've been asserting myself. That's a good thing, because I never do that.

I want to get in touch with people again. If you happen to read this, tell me something, by note, comment, or text. I want to know people again, I want to be the open person that people could talk to.

I'm going to be that person again.
I'll just have to make some changes.